Teeny, tiny update.

[keiliss]

First, blessed solstice.

The winter solstice has come and gone, and in my tradition that means this is a new year, and may it go well with us all; the last year was not the best. Today was a glorious midwinter day, with sunshine and no wind - almost though not quite beach weather. It's probably not healthy, but oh it did feel good. Visited R's brother and then went for coffee. Only remembered it was winter because the sun was down by 6.

Physically I am feeling almost fine -- little niggly things, that's all. I go for my six weeks' checkup on Friday - can't believe it's been that long already. Hormones went a bit weird, I had the Sensitive patch, where I cried at cute adverts with puppies and sentimental songs, currently going through the Depression, which I'm sure will lift in its time. But I stay aware that I've been very lucky and things could be so much worse - I might really have had something to be depressed about.

Cannot write. The mother of all writer's blocks has taken up residence. Even this post is a struggle. I have an idea I was meant to be exploring for the lotr_community challenge, one of Himring's prompts that really spoke to me, but getting it down in words -- what a joke. I'mmeant to be trying the 500 words a day approach. Last night I fell asleep straight after dinner, which I'm sure was tied up with the thought of writing :( (I woke up after 3, completely disoriented, and crawled into bed still half dressed). Hate feeling like this, it's like lacking a limb or not being able to match colours or something.

On the plus side, I've done a whole lot of reading since I got home from hospital. It's my default response to not feeling well or generally wanting to be quiet. If the house caught fire and I could only take one thing (besides my handbag and my mascara), it would be my Kindle. (oh all right, and my phone!) I remember how I used to feel as a kid, when we moved and I found the new library for the first time.... fluttery, excited, mouth almost watering --- NEW BOOKS. My Kindle holds a whole lot of books I haven't read yet!!!! I'd be further through that list if I hadn't felt the urge to read something old and so have been savouring once again Mary Stewart's beautiful writing in The Crystal Cave. Have also read a bunch of science fiction and some detective fiction, just general escapism.

Still following the World Cup. There've been some very unlikely results so far *g*. It's sooo relaxing and fun when your country had such a torrid couple of years that it failed to qualify, so there's no emotional investment. (no really, when you have a new coach every second year, it has to catch up eventually). I'm rather taken by Chile - love their energy.

I've been tidying up the hell that is my desktop, sorting out folders, deleting things I have no idea why I kept, filing others where they belong -- kind of a new year thing. I'll be going through my friends list here too, taking off people whose interests have changed or who don't update or who for whatever reason I no longer read... nothing personal, just prefer to confine my f-page to posts I'm likely to read. If I take you off and you want back on, let me know. Not sure that it matters - most of my fiction is unlocked and I don't do a lot of personal posts.

Finally, a picture, for no better reason than that I love them together and this picture makes me happy.

*hugs f-list*

by craww.tumblr.com

Comments

[chaotic-binky.livejournal.com]

I am relieved and glad that you do not have something to be 'really depressed about'. This year has to be better than than last year - let's all hope it is so for everyone :)

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

The last two years seem to have been dire for so many people, we need a break.

*hugs you*

[rhapsody11.livejournal.com]

Take your time hon, sort out your thoughts, find a place for that whole pack of emotions, pluk de dag!

Writing will return when you're good and ready for it and it is my hope that as the days grow longer, the creative energy will be refilled. But you know, we're here.



Worldcup: you are so going to love tomorrow's game!

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

Light :) Bless you, darling and thank you.
I knew they'd win :) They got lots of support over here, too.

*loves*

[rhapsody11.livejournal.com]

wubs you back, oodles! Hang in there sweety!

[nuinzilien.livejournal.com]

Mmm...nice pic! Not entirely my cuppa as a pairing (unless it happens to include the rest of the team), but the picture itself is lovely. Mind if I snag it for my personal collection of pretty?

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

Of course you can :) I'd forgotten to add the credit, but it's there now too.

*hugs*

[nienna-weeper.livejournal.com]

*Hugs you*

I hope this year will be much better than last year, which sucked here too!

I haven't been able to write much for years now. It's rather disappointing... I hope something bites me in the butt some day and I enjoy it as much as I used to!

♥

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

I think it's time the universe cut your family some slack now. Enough is enough.

Wish you were writing still. Muses are such uncooperative people, running off to lie in the sun and drink fancy concoctions with umbrellas and fruit stuck in the glass.

*hugs you tight*

[spiced-wine.livejournal.com]

I am so glad to hear you are doing well, apart from the 'niggly' things. {{{Hugs}}}
As for the writing - don't forget you've been through a traumatic time, even though you played it down and all went well. So I think that it is a side-effect of that. If you feel like reading that's exactly what you should be doing. (Oh, I love Mary Stewart, too!)

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

She writes such wonderful, evocative descriptions. I can smell the forest and feel the mist. So jealous, lol.

And thank you, I'm sure you're right. I'm just horrible at being patient with myself :D

*hugs*

[spiced-wine.livejournal.com]

I can smell the forest and feel the mist. So jealous, lol.

I can too! That's one of the things I love about her writing. It places me right into her world, and that's quite a rare thing.

I'm just horrible at being patient with myself :D

You are exactly like my Mum and Kev, they always expect things to be instant :)

[erviniae.livejournal.com]

Good to hear how you are doing. Sounds like you are beginning the solstice with a positive attitude. Good for you!
De-cluttering anything is good for the mind!!! It's freeing.
Take it easy and I am sure your energy will be back soon.
*hugs*


PS. I've lost my muses as well.....

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

Your muses need a firm talking to. If I see them while I'm searching for mine, I'll send them straight home.

I didn't think cleaning up inboxes, my friends list and the desktop would make a big difference, but it does feel quite good.

*hugs you tight*

[hhimring]

I'm glad you liked my prompt but you know you can write that one whenever! The community has that nice January amnesty, doesn't it, for example?
Take your time now! You've got a lot to recover from and it sounds as if reading and watching football is the way to go at the moment. The writing will come back when you're ready.

(I like the Crystal Cave a lot as well.)

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

It's the one about someone looking into the Masterstone. I loved the prompt and the story's all there, I'm just lacking the words for it right now.

Can't remember when I last got this much reading done, which isn't exactly a bad thing.

[hhimring]

I'd love to see what you do with that prompt!
The words will come, eventually, I'm sure.

Meanwhile enjoy the forest and the mist--or whatever you're reading next!

[angelica-ramses.livejournal.com]

Few things more fun and relaxing than watching world cup games with emotional detatchment (and the reverse, especially nerve-racking when people who are supposed to be among the best in the world play like Argentina did yesterday!) Enjoy and take your time. The block will go away in good time.
Hugs

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

Well, Messi scored a goal. Considering the poor showing of several so-called greats, that was a relief *g*. And I refuse to believe they can't beat Nigeria, who are nowhere near at their best (and are the one African team I do not support, so no question who I'll be shouting for - at - whatever, lol)

*tight hug*

[angelica-ramses.livejournal.com]

So you can start practising: Vamos vamos Argentina, vamos vamos a ganar... :D
Let's see what happens tomorrow *not optimistic*

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

So I am now a True Supporter :)

One of our sports reporters was asked which team he finds the most threatening, and he said Argentina --- any team that can glide through their first round while not even playing particularly well should scare the opposition. Personally I think they just did as much as they needed to, not pushing the players too hard.

(of course I was saying that about Italy, and we all know what happened there)

[alexcat.livejournal.com]

Natasha and Steve Rogers have gotten me writing again though the words don't come as they once did. I wouldn't sweat it. It'll come when it comes. Just do what you feel like doing.

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

I'm being taught patience and not to take things for granted, yes :D. Glad you've found an idea/fandom that has you wanting to write. I quite like the idea of Steve and Natasha.

[mdarkdreamer.livejournal.com]

Nui and I have talked about how they should make a short film of them in Budapest since they make that comment during the fighting in The Avengers eheheh....

I hear you on the writers block...*Sigh*...after The Fire Dance, with all the stress of Mom, worry about Dad...other personal things, its was all so much at once and...yeah. I understand, its frustrating and depressing.

*Hugs you tight*

~Dark

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

I wish you were still writing. Not saying that in a pressure kind of way, but because I remember how much you loved it and it would be great for you to have that back. Maybe one day?

A movie about Budapest would be great!! So would good fan fiction, but all I ever see are references to it, no more, except for one that was by someone who struggled with action sequences, which kind of killed it for me. There's a book hiding in that little throwaway comment.

[mdarkdreamer.livejournal.com]

Yeah Im hopeing one day I just wake up and start writeing again. We shall see. Im hopeful.

I know ay? Its like a open challenge to those who write Avenger fan fiction

~Dark

[mdarkdreamer.livejournal.com]

Yeah Im hopeing one day I just wake up and start writeing again. We shall see. Im hopeful.

I know ay? Its like a open challenge to those who write Avenger fan fiction

~Dark

[independence1776]

I hope this year is better for you, too. *hugs*

That is a lovely picture of those two.

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

I love the picture, this person does wonderful work. And thank you for the good wishes :)

*hugs*

(and thank you for tomorrow's reading, downloaded and waiting for me. I'm looking forward to this)

[phyncke.livejournal.com]

That is a great pic. I have been reading Black Widow comics lately (thank you ebay). They are so amazing. I love her. I never realized that she is also a super soldier like Captain America. She is super cool in the comics. Love her. I also love Hawk.

I have so many books on my kindle to read. Not sure what kind of phone you have but audibles are nice too. The narration can be really soothing to listen to and very well done. I read one book on my kindle and listen to another book while I am walking around. Can read two things at the same time.

Writing will come back to you. But reading for now sounds like a great thing to be doing.

So glad to see a post from you. Don't cut me! *clings*

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

I wanted to be Natasha when I was a little thing *g*. Always wished they'd put her back with Clint, and it took the movie and fan fiction to make it happen -- I was most happy, lol. She really is soooo cool!

My phone would be fine for it, I just never thought of using it for audiobooks. There's something to investigate - nice idea. And yeah, I like two books going at once, usually two very different kinds because then there's always something to fit my mood.

During our worst fights I never cut you, am so not doing it now :D

*hugs*

[aglarien1.livejournal.com]

I am so very glad to hear things are "almost" well, and I am so not surprised your muses have flown the coop. I've found that any serious personal issue just kill mine off for a bit. Take your time to heal, my friend.

*loves*

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Agie dear. It's strange how it works out, I thought I would do a lot of writing while I was recovering - all that time to spend on myself with a clear conscience - and not a word happened. I should have realise, of course, lol.

*hugs you*

[melusine6619.livejournal.com]

So glad to hear you're recovering, and hopefully sooner rather than later you'll feel your usual self.

Hugs and Blessed Solstice! And thanks for sharing the picture. :)

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

Hey Mel. Hope everything is going well in your life, thanks very much for the well wishes.

*hugs you*

[melusine6619.livejournal.com]

Pretty well, thanks. Aww, that's what friends are for.

*hugs back*