my lockdown update

Day 4,268 (or thereabouts) of our captivity. Confined to home, allowed out only for grocery or pharmacy runs or to seek medical help. The BBC commended us for having one of the most (on paper) stringent lockdowns in the world. They're not kidding.

Apparently it's very important to have routine and goals but my focus is not what it should be. I thought it would be a good time to be Creative, but find it's incredibly hard to try and write (two wips waiting, me staring blankly at Word). I remember that period between my cancer diagnosis and surgery, how I'd planned to fill the waiting time with drawing and writing and could not manage a single line of either --- I do not create well under stress. That really annoys me about myself. I am however becoming very good at online colour by numbers and Wordsdom.

Officially we have 9 days left though I have no idea how Cyril can lift the lockdown next week - maybe relax some of the really strict rules, let the addicts have their cigarettes at least! (thank god I no longer smoke, that must be agony). More has to be done about getting food to people who now have no income - in particular the ones who had informal jobs that have now vanished, because they are probably not getting any kind of a grant. I heard a woman talking about how she collects junk for recycling and now the recycling sites are closed and her family has no food, could hear the fear in her voice. Government is doing what it can, and there are food parcels being rolled out on a provincial level, but we were in a recession even before covid came to visit, there is no way they can give everyone who is suddenly without an income money to carry them through.

On the bright side, as of tonight 1,749 confirmed cases, only 13 deaths ('only' is relative, it is not 'only' to family and friends). This is set to rise sharply now they've started wider testing, though those results are only just starting to come through and won't be a factor for a couple more days.

Okay, I did not realise I was quite this flat till I started writing. It's what happens when the days all start running together (see banner). Tomorrow will be a better mood, I will try for Routine and Goals. And a List. And a sense of humour. And maybe go for an illegal walk around the complex.

Be safe ❤